Fearless Review

Just watched Jet Li’s Fearless. Has anybody else seen it? I thought it was pretty good — the warrior sees his faults, and then comes back in a resurrected, wiser form later on. Of course we’re supposed to celebrate the majestic simplicity of Moon’s tribe’s outlook on life, in a Last Samurai type of way, and it is kind of magical, but not all that. In the end, the solution is the same, lay down your life, end the vicious cycle of revenge and death, and gain victory through martyrdom, in a strange sort of patriotic move.

I think I like the overall idea. I ask myself: if I were poisoned to death, and my followers were willing to defend my honor, would I let them? Would I fight back? You could of course ask the question w/ respect to Christ: nailed unjustly to the cross, did he call down legions of angels from heaven? No, he didn’t, and perhaps we should follow His example. But then why don’t we all just become pacifists, and defend nothing w/ violence? It seems to me that it’s at least honorable to defend the weak and innocent w/ force, and in fact it is our duty. But Jet Li was not defending such people, but himself, as the leader of a movement. And this is why the martyrdom was such a brilliant sacrificial move, opting out of the revenge he could have taken. So that’s good.

Summary: don’t take vengeance, because the Lord will repay. We can see that in Jet Li. But this film doesn’t paint the full picture w/ respect to fighting back, or causing death. Law and justice demands death sometimes in order to protect the innocent — and that is why there will always be bloodshed in this sinful world, until Christ returns to bring perfect justice in the new world. No pacifistic pipe dream will change that.

Why I Blog

Reading Kristen’s post on this topic inspired me to write about it as well. I also have a little bit of an online history when it comes to blogging. I started blogging in the heyday of Chasing Hats Magazine, and enjoyed hanging out with the community of friends I met through those circles. I met very few of them in real life, but through online dialogue, I felt close to them, and happy. Instead of writing letters and epistles to a distant friend, I wrote blog posts. These were some of my happiest days, and I often think fondly of them.

The next few years were rather boring for my blog, however. I stopped blogging with anything like regularity, and stopped checking other blogs or commenting with any regularity. The magic, for me, had faded, and I didn’t really fight to get it back. Just sort of moved on. Until I happened to read a blog post that Tim Challies wrote, detailing the benefits he had received from his dedication to blogging every day (he’s now blogged 1060 consecutive days!). And I got to reminiscing about my own blogging history, and began to get a little nostalgia, and really miss it all. And so I decided, should old acquaintance be forgot? Certainly not! And what better way to renew old friendships and make new ones than by blogging for 365 consecutive days (since this isn’t a leap year)?

In essence, then, my reason for blogging is partly to renew and celebrate old friendships with folks like Mike and Kristen, to make new ones, and to be a part of the whole magical community that is blogdom. For me, that is the main goal — to befriend other cool and awesome bloggers! Along the way, I plan to learn a little bit of discipline, see if my writing wings still work, and possibly take flight in some grand literary adventures! But regardless of the success of my blog or whatnot, I just hope to have some fun with my friends. I love you all!

Update: Found and linked Challies’ blog post.

Webhosting and Wedding Photos

Hey, so my webhosting is expiring October 1st, and I want to switch hosts. Dreamhost was more or less ok, but they seemed extremely slow to me for quite a while, and they’re in an overloaded datacenter with power problems in LA, and I’m worried they’re oversubscribing people. And I just get the idea from their various blogs and such that they’re a bit too much about having fun, and not quite enough about providing great service. Plus you can see more at Dreamhost-Sucks.com.

I still really like BlueHost.com, which Chasing Hats and my church (site in development) are using. But Christian Burns brought to my attention AN Hosting, which is looking great: a nice chunk of storage space (35 GB) and bandwidth (750 GB/mo), for $6.95/mo (w/ 1 year commitment). I hear the customer service is sensational! 24/7 phone and email, and they respond in a hurry.

So I really need to get this going this week. This is everyone’s last chance to suggest anyone else, give me a referer link to get you some bucks, etc.

Speaking of referer links, I recommend Amazon.com for all your book needs. Try Amazon Prime, free 2-day shipping on all items (I got a 3-month trial!). Get an Amazon Visa and save $30 on your first order! I’ve done both! So just click that link up there and buy something you’ve always wanted! Treat yourself!

Also, I’ve uploaded my photos from my sister’s wedding to my new Picasa Web account, which is pretty sweet, though probably not a Flickr-killer for me. Let me know if you want to see the photos and I’ll send you an invite.

My Sister is Married!

Today was her wedding! It was just great. It was a beach wedding up at Deception Pass, and was really fun and cool. I don’t have any photos uploaded to Flickr yet, but I’ll work on that tomorrow night.

My brother-in-law is a pretty cool dude. He is a boat builder and a bike repairman, among other awesome talents. Just goes to show you: “Girls only like guys who’ve got skills!” Ok, he’s also fun and down-to-earth, a dedicated Christian, and just an all-around good guy. I’ve always thought it would be cool to have a brother — and now here he is! Bring it!

Also met another gal from CT at the wedding, which was a pleasant surprise. She works at the Kasch Park base, but I think we’ll still be working together in the future. Sweet!

Crazy Egg

Fellow bloggers might have some fun with a cool web statistics tool called Crazy Egg. It works like this: you embed a javascript in your page, which records what links visitors click on your page, and where they click on them. In your dashboard, you can then see a view of your site with a cool heatmap overlay of where users are clicking. The most impressive example I’ve seen is the heatmap of WordPress.com posted at Matt’s Blog:

WordPress.com Heatmap

Now, what is the real use of this tool? Of course, you can have some real value if you are running a very popular site with tons of hits, and want to try different versions of pages and such. But if you are just an ordinary blogger like most of us, what exactly is the point? Well, just to have fun. *grin* If anybody has played around at all with Google Analytics (*ahem* Nikkiana), then you already know what fun this can be (and Google Analytics actually includes a primitive version of Crazy Egg tracking, though devoid of the heatmap).

Anyway, I’ve been having a blast tracking my site, and I think you will too. Install and enjoy!

The Pope’s Limo

So the Pope is flying into New York to give some speeches and kiss some babies, right? So he gets off the plane and walks over to the guy with the sign saying “Pope”. Takes him to the limo, and the Pope says, “You know, I’ve always ridden in these things, do you think I could drive?” The chauffeur says sure, and hops in the back.

So the Pope steps on it and is just flying down the expressway. He’s definitely feeling the need for speed, but… Sirens! Blast! So the fuzz pull him over and tap on his window. The Pope rolls it down, and the cop sees his mitre, and runs back to his car to call dispatch.

“Hey chief, I just pulled over this limo, and I think I’ve got somebody pretty important.”

“Well, son, who you got, the mayor?”

“No, boss, somebody bigger than that.”

“Ok, what, you got the governor or somethin’?”

“No, I think he’s kind of more important than that.”

“Well, shoot, boy! You got the President of the United States?”

“No, I’m not sure who I’ve got — but the Pope’s drivin’ Him around!”

Ha!

Insurance and Trusting God

Tonight I’m going through the miscellaneous papers and such I still have to fill out to get all the benefits of my new job. Some of the decisions I have to make are which health plan I want, which dental plan, vision, retirement, and so forth. Now, the question is, “How can I be trusting God with my health, my life, and my future if I’m putting my hope in these corporate entities to take care of me if I suffer catastrophic injury, or cavities, or old age, or what have you? Shouldn’t the true Christian trust in God and not in man?”

This sort of thinking holds sway some Christians. I hear of families who, when their daughter is suffering high fevers, chills, and vomiting, refuse to take her to the doctor or go get some medicine because God is the divine physician and they “put their trust in the Lord”. Or, as I once read of George Müller, some folks when getting on a boat refuse to put on a life preserver, because their lives are in the hands of the Lord and His hands alone. And so on and so forth.

What do we make of this? My initial response is that these people are missing God’s use of means. God is the divine physician and will take care of your daughter — but He just might do that with a good, godly physician. If your ship sinks, you are in the hands of the Lord — but perhaps His divine preservation comes through the human invention of a life preserver. God is ultimately sovereign, but that doesn’t take away human responsibility. You are still responsible to take care of your family, even though it is ultimately God who is taking care of them. He’s just taking care of them through you.

But then, there’s a balance here. Jesus still says, “Don’t worry about what you eat or drink, or what clothes you will wear — does not the Lord feed the sparrows and clothe the lilies? Will He not feed and clothe you?” By worrying, we still can’t add a hair to our head or a year to our life. And this is the tempation when you start being responsible and taking care of yourself and family — “I’m the man, I’m making money, I’ve got a killer retirement account, …” But we must remember the parable of the man who filled his barn with wheat, only to die and have it given to another man. Let him who thinks he stands take heed lest he fall.

And thus the attraction of men like George Müller. The man would sit down to breakfast with a hundred orphans and not a slice of bread or a glass of milk in the house. He would sit down, bow his head in prayer, and ask the Lord to feed the children and let the food be nourishing to their bodies, in Jesus’ name, Amen. And then there would be a knock on the door, and men delivering piles of bread and gallons of milk because the Lord had put it on their heart. How amazing is that?!

So I think wisdom comes in finding the balance between trusting God completely, helplessly, and in working toward your hope. I certainly don’t want to be considered worse than an unbeliever for not taking care of my own. But I also don’t want to be so obsessed with this provision that I forget that every day and every meal is a miracle from the hand of God. Let’s all find that balance together in Christ.

Crank and The Covenant

So I relaxed tonight and caught a couple flix: Crank and The Covenant.

Crank is the tale of Chev Chelios, a man injected with Chinese super-poison that slows down your heart until you day. The only way he can survive is with a constant supply of adrenaline. Fortunately, he’s Jason Statham, so he’s an athletic, fighting, driving, kicking, sexy super-ninja-transporter who has no problem keeping up the pace. A few car chases, Red Bulls, epinephrine shots, and defibrillations later, he’s still alive and kicking baby!! So this sort of film is fun and all, but it suffers by having no real good guys. We are supposed to sympathize with Chelios, but for crying out loud he’s a hired hit man out for revenge! Not a real hero.

The Covenant is about the sons of Ipswich, the four families of witches who escaped from the European persecutions to America. Or wait, there were actually five families, one of which was completely wiped out in the Salem Witch Trials. But wait! It turns out one of the distant descendants impregnated some other gal as a ghost or something and had a living heir! And he’s coming back to kick some butt! Or something. Anyway, lots of entertaining superhero action, with some pretty typical teens trying to be mature, and learning that with great power comes great responsibility. Eye candy, teen memories, oh-to-be-young-and-idealistic-again — not much more than that.

So, I enjoyed myself a lot tonight, but I still came away feeling like I kind of wasted the evening. I want to do more to prepare myself for the great battles of life — and spending four hours on pretty trivial film really isn’t helping me be a better warrior. So I’m probably going to be reallocating my time here — fewer movies, more really powerful books. Hopefully I’ll have some book reviews up here soon.

Fantasy Football

Ok, I don’t have much time to post tonight, so I’m just going to blog about my fantasy football team, since it’s what I’ve been thinking about a bit the last few days. Here’s my roster:

  • QB: Peyton Manning
  • QB: Michael Vick (bench)
  • RB: Brian Westbrook (bench)
  • RB: Willis McGahee
  • RB: Frank Gore
  • RB: Corey Dillon (bench)
  • RB: Laurence Maroney (bench)
  • RB: Correll Buckhalter (bench)
  • WR: Chad Johnson
  • WR: Darrell Jackson
  • WR: Deion Branch (bench)
  • WR: Terry Glenn
  • TE: Jeremy Shockey
  • DST: Pittsburgh Steelers
  • K: Jeff Reed

I benched Westbrook cause of his injury, but he ended up tearing up the turf anyway. My wide outs all had great games, which I was pleased about, and of course Peyton Manning did his usual amazing thing. I pretty much had my heads-up matches locked away before I even played my Steelers defense and kicker in tonight’s game. Judging from the monster game the Steelers D had last Sunday night, I thought I was going to be sitting very pretty.

However, the Steelers did practically nothing for me after all — 1 sack, 1 pick. My kicker didn’t do a thing in the shutout. Oh well — I still won my games and am second in my league. Yeehaw!

Hope and Forgiveness

This post is about the desire for righteousness, yet the continual sin and failure; about the wish for dreams to come true, but the regular crashing of our plans; about the friends who are fun and happy and seem to mean well, but continually let you down. This post is about handling all the problems and struggles and letdowns life throws your way, and still bouncing back in optimism and hope. Life is never going to be candlelight and roses for us in this old earth, but we can still lead lives of joy and peace despite all the hopelessness that surrounds us.

The key to it all, I think, is forgiveness. God’s forgiveness in Christ for us sinners is the basis of our heavenly hope. Christ died on the cross as the curse for our sins, and rose from the grave that we might live new lives forever with Him. At the final judgment, we will have a mediator for all of our sins in Christ, and so we have a hope that cannot be shaken, because He is the rock. And so, in our earthly lives, whenever we sin, we can confess that sin and Christ forgives us; whenever the world is dark and oppressive, we can plead with God for justice and vindication and look toward our heavenly home; whatever the difficulty, we have a future hope because God has forgiven us in Christ.

Now, God says in Matthew 5 that He will forgive you in the same way that you forgive your brethren. Which means this: if you lust after a woman every day for a year, and ask God’s forgiveness every time, then he will forgive you 70 * 7 times. His grace is ever new. But this means that when your friends talk to you and laugh and promise to keep in touch, and never do, but whenever you talk to them again and they apologize and regret it, then you must also forgive them 70 * 7 times and forget the past. Whenever you feel the pain of smashed hope and so forth, remember the pain we cause God by our sin and disobedience, and remember the free forgiveness He ceaselessly offers us in Christ. Then let us forgive our brothers and sisters accordingly.

So, if you are depressed because things have just not worked out for you as you would have liked, and you find yourself soaking your pillow with tears in the evening, then take hope! In heaven, there will be no pain and tears, because we will be with Christ because of His forgiveness. And when our friends let us down, we can imitate Jesus in His forgiveness, and forgive and love them in the same way.